Several weeks ago, I wrote about
wanting to get some counseling through my church. Well, I'm glad to tell you that I didn't chicken out and went to see a counselor at the beginning of this month. We've only met twice so far, but she's been really great and feel like this is definitely what God wanted me to do.
Mostly, we've discussed my relationship with my dad, which is non-existent most of the time, and kind of hostile when we do interact. Even though my parents are still married, and I overall had a decent childhood, I'm still dealing with stuff that my dad (and sometimes my mom) did or didn't do as a parent. I guess it's all coming to the surface now that I am living with them again after spending several years being an independent adult.
The broken relationships and my hurts won't be healed overnight and maybe not even within a handful of counseling sessions, but one thing God told me last week was that
he is not surprised by the way my life turned out.I know that sounds a little strange - I mean, after all he is God - he's omniscient! But it never occurred to me before that God knew what my childhood would be like, how my dad would be, and how that would affect me as an adult. He didn't make a mistake and say, "Oops, I gave you the wrong dad! Sorry, no take backs!" He's not surprised, it's not a mistake, he loves me just the same, and really - I'm going to be okay. I know it sounds a little "Stuart Smalley" (from SNL), but they're true and I'm taking great comfort in these words right now.
What's God been telling you lately? Have you ever been surprised that God's not surprised?
Comments (2)
you know, I know that God is not surprised, but for me I feel as though I don't remember this when I'm going through life that God forges a path for me and he knows the outcome when I take that path or when I don't take that path.
Good read, thx for posting
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